Giving up

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I have kind of given up watching vlogs, youtube videos, playing PUBG, watching episodes on Netflix or any movies just to forget that memory of that person. I don't know why the mind automatically keeps on reminding us of that person who doesn't care for us or there is no more for us whom we considered our one. They have hurt us in every way and if we will keep in contact they might more. They have portrayed their characteristics every time by blaming you. They do have their life. they say it is their priority which we understand but for some time when they kind of needing emotional support they have been looking for it from us but now they have everything they do not need us anymore. We did many efforts for keeping in contact with them every day but they are busy in their life enjoying happily while you are struggling every moment of your life. But you still by forgiving them every time you understand them and go back to them asking to talk with you which is not worth it for you at all. I don't know when it will happen. I hope it ends soon and we find someone who deserves our love and also give us in return the same or more love and care even more than our parents. What hurts us even more than the one on which we could count on in the whole world that is our parents could also not help us in this like situation because they have never faced such a situation in their life so they could not provide us with any solution. I hope those who are struggling from these like problem heals soon and could do what is needed to be done like working on their own self and making one worthwhile that people who do wrong might struggle to stay with us. I would like to thank God for whatever has been given and also hoping that whatever is happening in life is good is only been wished of. But this struggle is to tough internally. Every day just waking up and thinking about the non-existing problem and fighting with it for the whole day along with the real struggle of life - career, relationship, etc.