Happy, Sad, Videos, Daily Life, Obsession, Thinking, Movies, Work, Love

 Ok why this is always tough, I have been doing nothing but still, it feels sad. The other person doesn't care about it and I do not hold any place in their mind. Why I am like always thinking of them even though knowing that I am nothing to them. They have their own life and people around them. Why am I like this? Right now also I kept thinking of them. I have gone through many things and learned many. I have tried a lot of different things. At last counting from 1 to 100 also helps. But still, I cannot feel happy with my family. I have attached myself to work or watching videos or movies at night. But my mind hurts during the day if I am not busy with any work. While if any of these is physical work to be done which is given by my family or anyone I cannot do it. I do not like it. Today I am very good compared to my past. Yes, I do have a home, food everything with me but still not happy. I am an empathetic person who is out there for others and helping but still at last end up being miserable alone. I do not show the world that I am unhappy. I try to be happy around others including trying to make others happy. I am out there trying to help others even though the people may not be there for me to help. I just develop a lot of expectations from the person to who I have been talking or being helpful in some ways. That person has their own life and family and friends I do not hold any such special place in their life. I am not able to understand what exactly I need and also what I go through every time even after knowing the reality. Hope this thing ends soon and I get to live a happy life. I want to earn a lot of money and give my parents and bhai every luxury possible. The main thing I am after to is keeping my mind busy in terms of anyway and that makes me occupied or involved with the process.