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Problem,

15:45 Dont know what exactly the problem is? But I am struggling with my every bit. I am happy. I am having many things with me, but still I face problems. Maybe I am not that much social. I don't know but there is something which is not correct. Dont know when I will get out of everything and will be living smooth life inside out. I have pretend to be good everytime. I am a very fun person but my life is a bit not perfect which only I know and I have battling. But still hoping the best and being grateful everytime. Thanking to god who has given what is given. We have to be it. Hope that I make it very big one day and would definitely like to help others as well.

Selfish, Relationship Problem, One-Sided Love, Sister, Feelings, Hurt, Efforts, Jobs, Opportunities, Company: 13/01/2022, Thursday

 13:24 I am in the office. Going through a document provided by the company on scrum. Studying it. Tried calling my sister twice. She acts like she doesn't care. Every time I tried calling but she doesn't respond. But for once as I was in the meeting I couldn't respond she is like shit happens. She is a very selfish person. She is formal and practical which is totally fine. But for me who is emotional and sensitive, it is very wrong. She has used me for some time when she was all alone and needed someone for the concern. But it was all my fault that I was emotionally available. Now she is very busy in her own life partying, and working daily with the duties she doesn't need me anymore as she is having many persons around her. It was all my fault that I relied on her emotionally. Now she is happy with her own life I wish happiness for her. I just want to forget everything and doesn't want anything but still every time it uses to come up to mind destroying it in every...

Tea: 07/01/2022 Friday

 12:44 It is when the first tea comes. 

Work, Life-Partner, Happiness, Hurt: 06/01/2022 Wednesday

 13:34 I am in the company. It feels a little bit boring as everyone is busy in working or not that we cant know. But it is what it is. I was feeling sad since yesterday as the person is not contacting me. It is their choice, I just read somewhere that the monkey dont look for money when they are getting something like that. I don't fully believe as this gets objectify so. It is true that I am precious. I am too good. I want someone good for me as well who is also funny, intelligent, very understanding, empathetic that I have not seen a person until now. Everyone is selfish at a point which is the truth of the world. Everyone looks a little bit for their own benefit which is not wrong also I guess. 13:41 I think I need a life where I could create content for the world making everyone laugh. I also want to create a platform where anyone can showcase (share) their talent without having any fear of getting judged. I don't want anyone to go through what I have been through. I know ...