Welcome to the Fictional World of Aditya Pooji Chauhan(through stories, questions, statements, etc.)

 12:43 Ok so I had this weird dream of the vlogs I see and my sisters were going on a road trip. It got ended and I woke up. Then the first thought came about that person and the day started ruining. It made me so sad and upset all over again for no reason. I mean like the dream was really different and I was neutral like no sad, no happy. But then after this thought, everything started to roam around that person for no reason. If any solution to these problems? 13:03 Also to the top of that the parents or the elder brother couldn't understand the unnecessary pain that I am going through. I dont know why it is there? But I do try my best to get affected by it. But it affects me very badly. I think it might be selfishness of me that I think of my problems only. But I do think of others also but I cannot help it. I also think to help my family through small work or like anything but nothing works for me. I also want to start my project of helping or serving others who might be going ...

00:32 Watching vlogs makes me so much happy from the inside which I try my best to feel around my family but I am unable to. But I try my best that I can bring happiness to their face. So recently I am trying to get attach to the vlogs so that it doesn't hurt me because I see it late, I mean like I will be watching 2 vlogs before today's so that I can watch every day. I wait for it for the whole day so that I can fight with any situation in my life and then I can watch it and be happy forgetting everything behind. While watching I do forget kind of everything leaving behind the sadness and all, worldly attachment and everything as well. I know this might be wrong but for now, this is what I like and I am being happy about it. So these are the three youtube channel vlogs that I watch on daily basis: 1. Sourav Joshi Vlogs 2. Flying Beast 3. Mumbiker Nikhil I get happy seeing them living life very happily though facing many problems in their daily life. Though the problem might be...

 12:56 Ok so last night I got to open Instagram, Snapchat and everything came back to place. I don't understand exactly what the problem is and what do I need exactly? I don't know when I will come out of this problem or will it be with me forever? I am not able to understand what exactly the problem is? Why there is a person on my mind like forever and then there is my family who is with me but I am not able to fully involved with them. I have many duties to do ahead of me. But I am also not able to do it nicely. I don't know what the exact problem is and when I will get the solution to it? Thankfully now the idea of suicide might be but it is very less. So for the whole life, I would not like to end my life thankfully. But this hurting phase is too bad. I mean like I have got a good life including friends, family everything but still why I can't be happy from the inside. I don't understand what the problem is and what will be the solution. Right now I have to fini...

 10:54 You are ready to forgive them for what they have to do to you. I mean like I am ready to forgive that person for everything, every damage they have to do to me or my family. Whereas later on has done the same thing with me. So I would be like a foolish person or not? But I am like be kind and let's talk with them forgetting everything and everything would be ok. But no it is tough to pretend that nothing has affected. I mean like no text, no calls, nothing since many days and suddenly you receive a funny video from them which was not funny at all as per my ethics and was cheap. But I am like be an open-minded person and see it like that, whereas the other person claimed certain activity as cheap of mine which yes up to the certain point was but then the next day tried to clear it out but the person has no time for me. I am still like that person will take out time from their busy schedule and will call. As a practical whatever the person had done may be right but seeing it f...

10:33 Memories flood back. You cannot focus on the present. You get disturbed cherishing the good memories with that person. But as of now, the person has changed so much they have got their priorities straight. In that, you are now not accommodated in that one. They are now hurting you more and more only. But you only think of them as good like they might be having some problem, they are not expressive, they still love you so much, they will someday prioritize again. But everything is incorrect because if that person has to do it has been done. The person is quite happy in their life so you do also have to learn to be happy with what you have without asking for that person. I know at times it feels too tough and you cannot get out of it very easily. But you have to forget them and enjoy every present moment you have which I know you aren't able to enjoy easily. Thus slowly we have to learn no matter what because if not it will ruin our life only. I am not able to enjoy the chirpin...

00:38 It is every memory that is hurting you. It is their name or anything related to them which is hurting you. In today's world, social media is the reason behind hurt with that person. The person for some time was so involved with you. But all of a sudden they got their priorities. So it is very tough for you to move on. Because you are emotional, sensitive but you have to be strong. You cannot let anyone ruin your life. Behind them, you are ruining your everything. Your career, family everything might get affected directly or indirectly. So try to be strong and busy with your work. Complete your duty. They will be there if they had to and if they are gone they didn't have to be true in your life. You will realise if you observe it that it was you who were taking initiative every time. Then you will realise that you do it for everyone. Thus you would have to decide who is capable of it and who is not. 12:46 Why it feels sad? The person is doesn't care for you, then why a...

 13:14 Why everything reminds us of them? Whatever we see it reminds us of them. They are happy with their life with or without you. You are sad with your around. But you are trying your best to be happy with what you have. You are giving your best and trying to make others around you happy. You are remembering and guessing about them that what they must be doing right now. Just forget them by any means. Dont remember, please. Please move on with your life. Yes, you will text them and they will be practical which will only hurt you. Try to be strong without them. Now when they will try to be back in your life don't melt. They know exactly what they did wrong. They have been remaining practical with you only. You have been all emotional and sensitive which they will blame you. Trust me they are not right for you. Yes, they might be happy with their life let them be. Dont get upset by any others' action. Yes, it is tough but you have to try your best to be tough. They weren't...

22:17 I dont know understand but why we keep missing someone who might not be missing or doesn't care about us anymore. For some time they have given us so importance and priority but now they aren't able to single text or call. But we as a sensitive and kind person be like ok let's make our first move. If they do not remember us lets us remember them and talk with them for some time which can make us feel good. They have only hurt us intentionally/nonintentionally! How to forget them? It's tough. Hey lord please make me enjoy my beautiful life with what I have. They are affecting our mental peace. We have given lots of importance to them. But they didn't care now for our efforts or anything. They have their own life. They did not miss us any more. Let them be. You try to be happy with what you have. Try to interact with friends/family. In my case it is, it can be yours also that your friends/family also might not be as expected. I mean like you might not be enjoyin...

15:54 A person has done only a few things in the past that means so much to us. But after that, they only have hurt us intentionally or unintentionally. If one message or anything from us as a kind person could make other people feel better then why not? I know that will be excess goodness from us but still! So what to do? Yes, it will take our energy and everything. We will only get hurt! But still what will be the difference between us and them?

 10:43 I saw a video of Michael Jackson. He is saying in the interview that the gap between the parents and the children is increasing. Everyone needs to be loved. Dont know why but I also think it is true. Everyone is so much busy with their own struggle that they forget to check up on their loved ones. It becomes tough for the sensitive ones. I don't understand what exactly the problem is, but I would like to meet this requirement in the world. So that no one can feel left alone. I mean like there might be few adults who are looking for some love. They can be connected to the old ones who are also left alone by their children's. Thus both can be felt loved. Because I have observed that the person take cares of the other person sometimes more than their own family. I mean like not like that much but they talk very nicely with strangers than taking out the anger or not speaking properly with their family rather than with the stranger. They will act nicely with the stranger thou...

00:41 It's very boring. No one is there to understand me. Tried telling my brother about the problem. Diverted the problem by pretending to get angry at my brother. Tried to did the same thing just for fun with mom also, but she took it seriously. Wanted someone to discuss the problem with. Tried to discuss it with a friend but he had his issues. So he starts telling his stories. Don't know where to go. Also, this coursework is taking the hell out of me. Trying my best to do it keeping aside the main problem in the mind. Trying to take help from anyone who can provide. Trying to reattach the problem. It automatically gets arise. Told my brother he said that I on my own is creating. It is halfway true but sometimes it automatically gets awakened. Need someone who can console me for some time then I can carry on my own. 00:52 I don't know but I think I need to change my mindset about things. But I don't know-how. I'm mean like what is the right mindset regarding anyth...

 11:17 Don't understand what is going around. Couldn't help. The people are so much busy in their life. You especially call them and they are like they are busy. I mean like they do not value. Hope they value it. Because the one who do the efforts will keep on doing, will not stop but give them back whatever you can before they get changed.

07:51 Woke up my elder brother. He came to know about my messages with that person. The person has responded but it seems like it doesn't care. Brother and that person both think that I am doing everything for the attention. It must be true but not exactly. All I am thinking is why the person must be doing it. It has got so much time why cant spare some. Is it true or was it for just some time? It seems like the person is I want to know that schedule. One of the main reason I think is I am fed up with this mediocre life. I want to give parents a luxurious life and enjoy it by myself as well but by doing nothing for now. I mean like what I need to do? I have mastered to complete. I don't have a job. I have a dream of helping people mentally by establishing a platform that would be accessible by any of the people in the world. Also, they can share their solution l. It seems tough but who knows what can happen? I am confident that something big is gonna happen. 11:05 The child has...

 08:39 Yes, I agree that I did not pay attention to what I want to do after the 10th and 12th. All credit goes to my parents especially my mom. I am so thankful to both of them for what I am today. But now today they are making me count it by saying that what if you wanted to do youtube why did we paid the tuition fees and everything. I know that it is very wrong of me that I am not able to perform currently in my studies. I am trying my best to perform. Also, the very problem is staying every time because I cannot discuss it with anyone and cannot get any solution related to it. I know that I am not able to perform today. But I am quite confident that I will do great in my life. I am trying my best to change it. But still, I do am giving an excuse like this is not the time, time will come, etc. I want to become a true influencer. I mean like people bring their problems to me and I solve them very practical. So for that, I need to start from anywhere. But I am not able to start it ...

 17:05 My mom is talking with my masi. They are talking about me that how messy I am, I do not do any work, I have not completed my MSc. I am not able to do anything. Yes somewhat things are true, but not 100%. I am not able to do physical work, but if they told me to I try my best to do it. Then my mom claims to me that I open up the personal life in front of others. She is doing it, it's totally fine. I understand she is frustrated and she is telling others.  19:27 I am alone in my room. Trying to learn cloud computing which I know that I won't be able to complete by any means. Also, want someone to talk to. The one whom I can like. I cannot contact the person, because the person is busy in their life. I badly want to talk with the person. Instead, I can talk to anyone but they will also not understand. I don't know exactly what my problem is. I know that I won't be able to get any person who can exactly understand and feel my condition which though is quite good in t...

 11:13 Want to do many things. Want to do good for people. Trying my best to do anything which can help the world by the anyways especially mental problem. Because I am going through one and cant gets any solution to it from anyone. I feel goosebumps whenever I saw any emotional or enthusiastic scene in the movie. I am an emotional person. I am a sensitive person. 

 12:47 You don't know that feeling. You have to pretend to be good. But you are not feeling good from the inside. One of the reason may be the attachment with the person. But you have to overcome everything. That person is just doing fine in their life. Let them be happy and you try to be happy in your life with what you have. Your parents, family, few true friends are there but you wouldn't be able to feel good around them also. But you have to be happy from the inside and make them happy as well. You have to