Welcome to the Fictional World of Aditya Pooji Chauhan(through stories, questions, statements, etc.)

 I did my thing and called for the person for checking up regarding one of the company tasks. I feel bad for calling them at the wrong time, don't know why. Right now I was watching a movie with my brother and mother but there happened an incident where mom scolded me for not talking in the right way with my elder brother.  My intention is not there always wrong but it got misspoken thus the situation occurred. God, please give me the strength to be always calm and peaceful in front of everyone thus avoiding any conflict always. I did not realise may be wrong but hopefully will make it. The movie just blew my mind, it is just out of the box thinking. Sometimes we forget the difference between movies and real life. Many times the movie is made from real life. I am watching YouTubers, gamers, bloggers and the way they are caputiring their moments in a video. I also want to do the same in a way for me watching it later at a stage and getting satisfied how far I have came through ...

 I call the other person and will not get anything. I expect a lot from any person without any reason. I need to stop it from now on. Instead what I will do is I will write here. But the feelings get so strong to ping or call the other person by innovating a reason to talk and discuss further. I don't know this feeling. Yes, I want a partner but I need it to be obsessive but understanding at the same time. Empathy is very ideal for me and it should be the same in the other person. All the people I have been through I see it lacking or it is there but for another specific person. Maybe that is the reason I fall for them and ask for more. I use to hate myself that is why I think so much of other people and not of my parents and bhai who have done many things for me and given me many things. I want to be successful or rather want so much of money that I can tell my dad not to work and enjoy his retired life. The role I have is managing one, ok which I am kind of okay with whereas I wa...

 It hit me today again for a person who is just a colleague, who doesn't knows me before 11 months at all. I just have worked along. This thing is repeating in my life with those who shows some compassion or helpful nature, I started falling for them expecting them to give me endless love, etc. Also falling for it everytime has been very bad for me especially the obsession. Thankfully touchwood now I have it a lot under control but I have to tied my happiness with a series or a movie to watch at night after everyone sleeps because if they do not then I cannot do anything in peace. What is the feeling, I keep falling for each ones. Hey god please solve this asap because I have been through a lot everytime. Thank you for everything but still a little relief with this and happiness along will be super good. Also we went to big house with all family members along with whom our family does not get easily ahead, but still it is difficult. O god please give me the nice life which I am loo...

 There are many thoughts in mind at the same time and it is tough to go through a few thoughts as they may be disturbing or don't know what comes next and where going. I get bored and don't like being with my parents and brother whereas they have given me many things protecting me from everything and giving me many things. I do not like the company as I get very easily bored and cluttered with many unnecessary thoughts that take me on a ride in the unwanted world. I want to live my life on my own terms but in India, you are just not allowed to, but still, I have been given a very nice life comparatively. For the life that I am dreaming of is do not know when it will be achieved. I am all ready and already did many superb things. Dont know when it will and what needs to be done for achieving such luxurious life. I am also looking out for a passion that makes me happy, keeps me occupied and brings lots of money through which I can provide a lavish lifestyle to my family and I can...