Welcome to the Fictional World of Aditya Pooji Chauhan(through stories, questions, statements, etc.)

 14:00 So if you want to stay happy with what you have, you have to live accordingly and stay satisfied especially in personality. So let's talk about parents so if they want you to be polite and conservative you have to start pretending only. To oneself, it might look like you are getting suppressed for being confident or true in terms of being in front of them. It might be true but it is tough to check whether it is true or not. So be confident but only in your zone and do something unique and of great importance in your life and then later show it to the world. It is my request to parents also that please try your best to understand your child because from the experience you might have come along it seems like the child is doing nothing and being useless for no reason but sometimes actually that is not the case, because what seems to be easy for you might be very difficult for the child to face. So at least the parent can just listen to what the child is trying to say and please...

 11:46 What hurts more is that when there is no one around to understand/empathize with you. Why it gets tough when we are no more child. Because I think when you are a child everyone tells you what to do and you obediently follow it. But now when you get old you use your mind in making a decision which might oppose the one who was earlier telling you what to do in life, also they will get hurt as you no more obey them. As a child, you haven't developed much to take decision so you happily every orders but as an adult, you have to look out as per your point of view which might not meet with other perspective and the clash begins. Now the one who is elder or well-wisher should first understand your condition and then suggest you something whereas they will just order you in the same way as before where everything might get wrong. You cannot see from the other's eyes so first you should learn to look from that person's eye and should tell what to do and what not to do. Wherea...

08:35 Every day it is tough. It feels like suicide every day. There is no one to support you. Although it would be like family and friends are there for supporting you but actually, they just say only that we love you and everything. Otherwise, there is no one out there with whom you can share everything and come up with a solution for fighting the problems. Then comes a stranger who loves you so much like but just for some time then they also get back busy to their own life. So now again you are left with no one but you still try your best to tell everyone that please help me but they all are also struggling with their own life. So just we have to hang in there waiting for some day when your life will be good without any worries.

 11:40 I know every person needs their own privacy but don't be that selfish that you couldn't give a minute or two to the one who expects you on a daily basis. That's what I think. I mean like the person has time to use the social media, plays a game, can do daily chores, I mean like have time for every other work but cant spare some time for the loved one seriously that is very wrong. Obviously, for anyone, the responsibilities or duties come first but after that when got some time should spend by just a glimpse to that person because that person might be waiting for your attention but then blaming them for expecting is also totally wrong which I think. 11:55 I think that person is selfish who for some time gives attention to a person but after that couldn't get back to that person knowing that how sensitive or emotional person that is, is very wrong. I mean like for some time you needed to divert yourself so you kind of weighted your relation saying many things to th...

 17:21 It would be so tough for an emotional or sensitive person fighting with their own thoughts as every time it just makes them sad. For a moment it would be like they have recovered almost but then the next moment it would be observed that nothing has changed, everything was just there making them upset again for the whole time. It is too tough to move on easily although the daily chores must be done unconsciously but trust me it is too hard to forget everything and be happy with the present moment. But I think it has to be learnt that there is no other way out regarding it. So to overcome the problem one has to divert and try to be happy on their own only cause from the family also no one could help because no one knows and no one can be told about it. Now it has been many days since I have started writing everything in the blog but it also has not helped me much. Hope everything gets sorted out and it can be happy and normal.

11:33 Ok, so it was my mistake that I couldn't perform well in my coursework due to which there has been a problem. Also, the problem was that I didn't know about it well that's why. But now I am going to be blamed by my family. So they are correct in their own way. But I have to be scared that I have done a mistake and now the environment will not be good due to me. Everyone in the house has to suffer due to me. I will be blamed for not doing anything right, not helping in the house, not studying well, everything. I am gone. A few days back only I felt like suiciding due to the coursework because it was stressing too much and last year twice I had the thought that I won't be able to do anything. But after some time I learnt that I can do many other things better and through which I will be able to earn the money also but that is in future so that requires patience which Indian parents don't have. I feel lucky that I have quite understanding parents but no I was wro...

19:00 Ok, so it's the evening. I woke up late. On top of that, I slept after having lunch. Many chaoses going on due to the coursework. The coursework has been done by another method of which the university is not asking. So now many things going on. Also the person I had been craving of sending a photo to which reply was okay. I didn't have to reply back but still as the brother was nearby and he was also looking so kind of sent the text. As nothing is working out and I am getting stressed, the parents started blaming me for not studying well, selecting the course and everything which is definitely their concern from one angle but as an individual, it is very wrong at this critical for blaming a person and criticizing it. Yes as per the traditional norms, it is very wrong comparing the kids with their parents, but in the new generation where everyone is equal and everyone should be treated well and should be fighting the problems together, it is kind of wrong. The parents must...

 17:14 Why I keep thinking about that person who doesn't care at all for me now. For some time it's like they are so much into us but after some time they have got their own priorities and duties and responsibilities to follow which I can totally understand as an empathetic person but still, it hurts so much that the person uses to do these things in the past of which a glance can make our day and we can remain smiling for the whole day but now it doesn't excite us any more. I don't know exactly the problem, but I still hope that I get the solution soon. Because I have been hurt since 2014 for a long time now. It has been now too much, every day getting hurt for another person and too like for no reason. 17:38 It

18:01 Ok so dont know what the problem is in every family, but there is. I don't understand one thing that why everyone can stay together happily whatsoever family they are in. I think that's why the person looks for a person who can be special for/to them outside the house. Because they can't have much expectation from the stranger, so the person will definitely be more than expected loving and caring. Sometimes I don't understand why everything is happening. Some would say it is karma and everyone will observe it now or in future. Pain is tough. Everyone is observing it in different ways, so the least we can try is to be good with the ones who don't care and then we got hurt. So we also start becoming practical for the world keeping aside our emotional behaviour. 21:54 Time is passing by. I want to do many things but due to parental pressure, I feel like I am not able to do few things. They are not forcing me much for doing anything. But still, it feels a little b...

 13:20 Today when I wake up there were many thoughts coming but I have decided that I will not get disturbed by any of them. Thus I have to fight it. Yes, it was and is very hard to fight against it. Yet I have been successful in it. Though there were some times that I thought of giving up, I fought hard. Now the main problem but still stays which is my coursework report and I am trying my best to work on it. But I have this doubt of whether I am doing it right or not? Hope that every problem gets over. I mean everything gets neutral. I exactly don't know what is life, things, etc. Yes, it might be overthinking but still, it is what it is. 14:07 I don't know why it is like this, I mean like I have got a good house, got food, got good family, I mean like I have every basic thing with me but still I am not been able to remain happy with myself and the around ones. I don't know why I am so sad and unhappy from the inside. Though if anyone meets I can superly pretend to be happ...