03 Feb 2021

07:12

That feeling is very bad. Addition to that no one is there who can understand it. You try to explain it to someone but they do not understand. It is not their fault because they will be seeing life from their perspective. It's your life. You have to work on it. I have watched many inspirational, spiritual videos but none helped. You are thinking good for the person that if they understood life will be super good. But as they have a strong belief about their point of view that cannot change. Also, they have developed these for many years so they might have a strong belief that what they think is only correct. It takes time to accept something from outside. Also, they have been encouraged by so-called people that you are great and all. Thus their confidence level is extreme. It's fine but they are an important part of your life. You wish well for them but they can't see. So maybe if we can just leave them. When the time will come they will realise. Want to do something. Want to follow my passion but due to many hindrances just can't.

08:33

The one person with whom you were feeling special good is no more there for you. Expressing your feeling to them is cheap. You showed this much love, took care, expanded your boundaries for them. But they think it is cheap, everything. Still, you are crying for them to get back to you. They are short-sighted. They listened to something and then judge you on it. Act likewise then. They assume everything wrong.

11:46

Why do we have to pretend that we are okay if we are not? Also, you have to own it up to yourself. Why people get changed. For some time it's like the best feeling but then they have got priorities and now you don't matter at all for them. No one is there with whom you can satisfactorily share your feelings. Though have shared with my best friend you don't get that satisfaction. Want to talk badly with the person but now they have no time. They feel like everything we do is cheap. We think good that may be in force of anger have said that they don't mean it. We think good of them but they keep you hurting by avoiding you, saying things which don't need to be said. Why you just cant move forward. Wherever you go you don't feel good, feels slight dizziness, but you have to hold it strongly so that no one can see it. It's tough to move on, forget the person, leave them. Though they keep on hurting you, you want to take care of them.