13 April 2021: Attention

07:51

Woke up my elder brother. He came to know about my messages with that person. The person has responded but it seems like it doesn't care. Brother and that person both think that I am doing everything for the attention. It must be true but not exactly. All I am thinking is why the person must be doing it. It has got so much time why cant spare some. Is it true or was it for just some time? It seems like the person is I want to know that schedule. One of the main reason I think is I am fed up with this mediocre life. I want to give parents a luxurious life and enjoy it by myself as well but by doing nothing for now. I mean like what I need to do? I have mastered to complete. I don't have a job. I have a dream of helping people mentally by establishing a platform that would be accessible by any of the people in the world. Also, they can share their solution l. It seems tough but who knows what can happen? I am confident that something big is gonna happen.

11:05

The child has to obey their parents. How can the child be ever able to take the decision on their own? Overall the condition is tough in the whole world. But the one who is working daily are regularly working and the one who is suffering is suffering. Don't know what is gonna happen. Why the one looks from their angle only. Why they can't see what the other must be going through.

12:03

Why my mom is forcing me to do the coursework? I do not want at all to do it. I am not able to do it. I did not understand anything at all. I am good at understanding people. I want to do a job related to it. But I don't know what type of job it is! If anyone knows please do let me know in the comments. I can easily empathize with any person.

12:31

Oh lord please help me! I am unable to do anything. I don't know why. But I don't have anything in my life. I have no one with me - friends, family, love, career, money. I am struggling with negative thoughts sometimes in my mind.

20:42

I don't know why but it hurts me when someone cannot spare some time for me. I don't know why I get attached so much to a person who hurts us and say that it is our problem of overthinking and getting attention. They say that we are expecting so much from us but actually, they are expecting so much from us by understanding. Everyone on social media thinks like they are the star that's why they did not reply to any appreciation or anything. Someone is trying to compliment them but they cannot take it. On the other hand, there are few who genuinely feels good and are doing good. I don't understand these things that what is right or wrong. What is true, genuine, fake?