Boring

00:41

It's very boring. No one is there to understand me. Tried telling my brother about the problem. Diverted the problem by pretending to get angry at my brother. Tried to did the same thing just for fun with mom also, but she took it seriously. Wanted someone to discuss the problem with. Tried to discuss it with a friend but he had his issues. So he starts telling his stories. Don't know where to go. Also, this coursework is taking the hell out of me. Trying my best to do it keeping aside the main problem in the mind. Trying to take help from anyone who can provide. Trying to reattach the problem. It automatically gets arise. Told my brother he said that I on my own is creating. It is halfway true but sometimes it automatically gets awakened. Need someone who can console me for some time then I can carry on my own.

00:52

I don't know but I think I need to change my mindset about things. But I don't know-how. I'm mean like what is the right mindset regarding anything.

12:52

Hope I could get over it. This is my third time happening. I easily fall for the little efforts they do and badly get attached. Every day in the morning first thought comes like why the person is now not speaking with me. They are busy in their own life. But some time before they were busy also but they use to talk, spare time for us. Now they have got their busy life back we are of no more importance to them. I have my things to do thankfully somewhat I can do but not completely and the mind is stuck upon that only. If they would call it would make my day truly. But I understand that they have their duties and responsibilities to fulfil. But I go mad over here sometimes and anxiety eats me up. Also, this cannot be discussed with anyone in the family. They would react like why are you stuck upon it, etc. This is true but this happens automatically. I tried many things like cycling or indulging in some activities but nothing worked out.

13:23

I think my problem is that I think too much and want to do so many things, but right now everything around there is nothing which I like masters, helping mom dad, doing daily things. Otherwise, I would have been like so much indulge in the activities that too happy and time would not be minded at all.