Dream

 12:43

Ok so I had this weird dream of the vlogs I see and my sisters were going on a road trip. It got ended and I woke up. Then the first thought came about that person and the day started ruining. It made me so sad and upset all over again for no reason. I mean like the dream was really different and I was neutral like no sad, no happy. But then after this thought, everything started to roam around that person for no reason. If any solution to these problems?

13:03

Also to the top of that the parents or the elder brother couldn't understand the unnecessary pain that I am going through. I dont know why it is there? But I do try my best to get affected by it. But it affects me very badly. I think it might be selfishness of me that I think of my problems only. But I do think of others also but I cannot help it. I also think to help my family through small work or like anything but nothing works for me. I also want to start my project of helping or serving others who might be going through the same situation as me. Hope everything gets to place and I could be neutral at least.

13:32

Also, this is not the first time that I am this much into a person. This has happened to me before as well. So I am not sure that this is the person that I want in my life no matter what. Also, I am not sure if the person also wants it or not, I mean like whatever the relation could befriend, best friend, best sister. I want a relationship that is based on every day. Yes, there might be a gap of few days but not like a month or more. I hope that I get the perfect person I can get attached to, to whom I can give all the love and affection and everything and expect few things back from them. Also, the person supports me in every up and down. I don't understand what exactly the problem. Hope I can overcome this problem as soon as possible.