Forgiving

 10:54

You are ready to forgive them for what they have to do to you. I mean like I am ready to forgive that person for everything, every damage they have to do to me or my family. Whereas later on has done the same thing with me. So I would be like a foolish person or not? But I am like be kind and let's talk with them forgetting everything and everything would be ok. But no it is tough to pretend that nothing has affected. I mean like no text, no calls, nothing since many days and suddenly you receive a funny video from them which was not funny at all as per my ethics and was cheap. But I am like be an open-minded person and see it like that, whereas the other person claimed certain activity as cheap of mine which yes up to the certain point was but then the next day tried to clear it out but the person has no time for me. I am still like that person will take out time from their busy schedule and will call. As a practical whatever the person had done may be right but seeing it from other perspectives of family, near ones it is very wrong. I get confused so many time that whether I should forgive them or not. I mean like let's be normal. Why I am scared of losing that person that if I not responded the person will not be there anymore. Though the person is not now, don't know about the future. So should I just forget them totally? If they understand me definitely they would be there for me anytime.

12:03

Why I get attached easily with anyone who has their own life. For some time, you see their loyalty, caring and loving nature towards you and another person that might be the problem. You start to think that the person will remain the same with you. There comes the reality that might be the thing that needed to learn. Actually, I know about that thing but for some time you forget that and start falling for it. Then you get out of control and you do your best to keep the relation by doing some wrong things also. You start to expect so much from them resulting in hurting yourself only. Thus it needed to be learnt that we can be happy with what we have only. Then only we can be happy for a long time. Yes, it will take some more time comparatively but you have to overcome it and come out of it and be happy in your life with whatever you have.

16:10

Right now I am trying to write a report on the cloud computing coursework. It has been very hard for me to code in any language though coming from a computer engineering background. I don't know what I will do in the future which also what I am scared of. I mean I like writing stuff and all. I like vlogging but as a career, it is hard whether you can tell that you will earn enough or not. I am trying my best to write the report on the AWS Services and all but it is tough when you didn't want to do it. But you try your best to do. So I am also trying to upload videos on YouTube through which if possible I can earn the money right now. Also, the situation is tough out there due to the pandemic.