Hurting

00:38

It is every memory that is hurting you. It is their name or anything related to them which is hurting you. In today's world, social media is the reason behind hurt with that person. The person for some time was so involved with you. But all of a sudden they got their priorities. So it is very tough for you to move on. Because you are emotional, sensitive but you have to be strong. You cannot let anyone ruin your life. Behind them, you are ruining your everything. Your career, family everything might get affected directly or indirectly. So try to be strong and busy with your work. Complete your duty. They will be there if they had to and if they are gone they didn't have to be true in your life. You will realise if you observe it that it was you who were taking initiative every time. Then you will realise that you do it for everyone. Thus you would have to decide who is capable of it and who is not.

12:46

Why it feels sad? The person is doesn't care for you, then why are you caring so much for them! You miss them so much. But they have their priorities set, why can't you set your own. You have many things left to achieve. The person is at some position or at least learn how focussed the person is. It might be affecting you due to which you might be overreacting to your surrounding ones resulting in a bad environment. That person is living their happy life so why can't you live your life too happily. The feeling is tough, I mean like if you will fall sick or this pandemic is going on but your mind will be sad by that thing only. Yes, you will get affected by seeing others in pain. But you will get more affected by this problem only. Remember one thing you have to do your duty of whatever you are doing effectively whether it is studies, jobs, etc. That person is doing their duty or responsibilities so why you cant be? This is tough but you have to see what you need to do. Also, hobbies like watching web series, cooking, playing games, etc might not help but you have to get attached to the thing which can act according to you not according to others. Best try to divert your mind. Hope you will get the solution. The main thing that hurts during this time is you cannot this problem with anyone including friends and family because they will react like the problem is nonsense, stupid, etc. The main thing is they will not understand it and can empathise with us. Because they might not have been through this problem by any chance. The one who has been through this problem only can understand but roughly and they will also get recover. So you have to learn on your own to overcome these problems. One day everything will pay off.

18:15

Dont know why but I start feeling sad on my own. Wish that the person was still talking to me. The person still takes out time for me. But hey no the person is busy in their own life happily. They don't have time for me. So I just have to move on forgetting them. I have work to do which I don't like. I have to prepare the reports for the submissions so that I can get the masters degree in August. Hope this sadness gets over and I can be happy with what I have. Why I expect that the person will call? Also, the family couldn't support me as they are struggling with their own problems. So I am on my own to have to fight my problems. Yes if I think it generally there has been a person in my life who has ghosted for their own reasons which from the worldly aspect is definitely correct as per the priorities, duties or responsibilities. But from the perspective of a kind person, it is very wrong. They know about their surrounding one's feelings but they couldn't think the same with me. Yes, I did not want the whole attention or time just a minute or two can make my day which they couldn't take out. The attachment is a very bad thing!