Control

 13:20

Today when I wake up there were many thoughts coming but I have decided that I will not get disturbed by any of them. Thus I have to fight it. Yes, it was and is very hard to fight against it. Yet I have been successful in it. Though there were some times that I thought of giving up, I fought hard. Now the main problem but still stays which is my coursework report and I am trying my best to work on it. But I have this doubt of whether I am doing it right or not? Hope that every problem gets over. I mean everything gets neutral. I exactly don't know what is life, things, etc. Yes, it might be overthinking but still, it is what it is.

14:07

I don't know why it is like this, I mean like I have got a good house, got food, got good family, I mean like I have every basic thing with me but still I am not been able to remain happy with myself and the around ones. I don't know why I am so sad and unhappy from the inside. Though if anyone meets I can superly pretend to be happy and also make them happy as well.

23:37

Thankfully a day comparatively well spent. Yes, today I tried to control my thoughts in a way. So every thought was coming but I tried to keep away the unnecessary thoughts aside by keeping the main ones to do in front. But still, it hurt a lot due to the person who doesn't care at all. I don't know when I will get a person who can understand me well, with whom I can share everything, I can expect, and more importantly, I can give love, affection, etc. infinitely. That person can be in any form friend, relative, sibling, anyone.