Mistake

11:33

Ok, so it was my mistake that I couldn't perform well in my coursework due to which there has been a problem. Also, the problem was that I didn't know about it well that's why. But now I am going to be blamed by my family. So they are correct in their own way. But I have to be scared that I have done a mistake and now the environment will not be good due to me. Everyone in the house has to suffer due to me. I will be blamed for not doing anything right, not helping in the house, not studying well, everything. I am gone. A few days back only I felt like suiciding due to the coursework because it was stressing too much and last year twice I had the thought that I won't be able to do anything. But after some time I learnt that I can do many other things better and through which I will be able to earn the money also but that is in future so that requires patience which Indian parents don't have. I feel lucky that I have quite understanding parents but no I was wrong and I am wrong now. They are strict only but they were just pretending to be friends but they are parents only. Sometimes I think life is good but it is tough as well. I don't know what I am going to do. I mean like the hurting from inside has killed me and then this now I am trying my best to stick up and yes I will fight through it but what hurts the more than the one whom you can trust doesn't trust you as they are not able to see the output but what they have to look is the efforts. But no, no output that means you aren't doing anything. In some way, it is correct also but the situation must be understood and solved so that the person gets motivated and move ahead in life easily and happily. But no we have to do the dramas in everyone's life.

11:48

It was my fault. I was a fool not to look properly at the tutorial that now everything has gone wrong. But frankly speaking, I didn't have to do it at all. I just don't want to do anything yet I was doing that my parents will never understand in their life. I don't know why life is tough. Life is so beautiful and easy if you have got an understanding person around you I think. Those are lucky who has got those people. I don't know why, I am grateful for my life but it gets hard sometimes so much I don't know how to pass it easily. I am a happy person from the inside, but I have to pretend to be something else due to the condition going around. I don't know when my family will understand everything and will sort everything easy out.

11:56

Now I get to know that why the child speaking a lie. As the child has done something wrong by mistake but still the child will be scolded so next time when it has been purposely also then also the child will refuse to accept the mistake. So slowly due to the parent's strictness, the child starts speaking lies. He wants not to speak, but the history repeats itself and he has been scolded so the child thinks it's better to get away with lies rather than speaking the whole truth that no one would understand.

18:00

I am fed up with everything. I cannot do the coding at all, but I have to write the report on the coursework I have to. So I am writing it but there is no mood for writing at all. But still, I have to. Also, two other reports are remaining which I have to finish in few months. Why the parents stay so hard on the child if the mistake is being made on and on. Instead, they should understand the condition what the child must be going through.

19:43

I don't know why but my day can't go without feeling sad for any or no reason. I am a very happy person from the inside. I can smile in every situation whether it is tough or not. But as per society norms, I have to behave as per the situation.