Struggle

 11:11

I dont understand what to do and what not to do? What is right and what is not? Many things going around. Maybe I am just fooling myself. So I need to listen to the solution of the problem and work on it. No one is there who could give me what I expect. It might be my mistake also that I don't know what exactly I want. But still, I try to define that I need some attention, care and love from anyone in this world - friends, family. But no one could understand my condition and on top of that, they will solution according to them which I know and I don't want. So hope this all thing comes to an end soon. I am neutral from the inside. I am happy with everything, but suddenly a wave comes regarding any problem, and my mindset gets destroyed. The wave is not the problem but the hurting due to it is the problem. The pattern or habit of it has been in me for a long time, so now to change it will require some time to not get disturbed by anything. Hope it happens soon.