colleague, festival,

There is a colleague of mine whom I have worked with and helped a lot. But not felt right. Now when the work is going along with others it can be seen that happily working. Dont know why I have been so hardworking. It hurts watching it for no reason. All I have wished and done is good but I think the main reason would be that they share the same surname and thus are comfortable with each other. To add to it I am having a different role. Currently, also there is a festival going on but I am seating by side and journalling this. I am good though. I have come a far way and want to go a long way firstly in terms of money and providing everything to my family, especially my parents and brother. The main happiness lies for me in being my mind busy with something. I dont know how is going to be but until now it has worked all good and hopefully in future also it will work out quite well