Childhood, Money, Luxury, Life, Work, SUITS, Vlogs, Videos.

 The real attachment is with the videos or movies right now and hopefully, there will be some final results where it can be peaceful and happy with everything. Dont know what is the exact thing and when it will get solved. Hopefully one day there is some solution. Manifesting something may solve but don't know how and what to think. Yes, I know that there will be lots of money around so that I can provide luxury to my family who has done a lot for me. I try to fit in with them but due for some reason cannot make it through. Since childhood, I have been struggling with many things like toilet problems and sadness and I have come far with results. I am not able to figure out what is there exactly I am looking for. Also at work, the struggle is real when I am giving my 300-400% whereas in return there is very less. Still, I am out there giving my all to many but they are kind of jealous or something.

Every day when I woke up there is some loneliness and getting sad over that person who is not out there for me but I am ready to give or do whatever it takes. Later I have to divert it into some watching or playing.

Whenever I am watching someone's videos I do not feel jealous or envy them. Instead, I feel like I will also work hard and will get that thing. I am looking out for getting that thing for my family. I struggle every day with some feelings but still make it through. I want to get rid of thinking about that one person but end up thinking about that person every single day. I have been diverting from that thought in one way or another. Hopefully, I get a permanent solution soon. Also every day I have this toilet problem that I struggle with but still make it through. I am a very helpful person out there but the world is sometimes cruel without any reason. I watched SUITS and it was wonderful. I need to learn those tactics again and make it through the world in a practical and professional way.