Respect, Festival, Movies, Videos, Vlogs, Passion, Dream

 To chose between everything is difficult. Today by mistake I posted on a broadcast list with a number of a person. Therefore I received many messages saying who is it? Else before I had posted a greeting then no one had replied back. This is tough. Feeling alone sometimes hurts and sleeping the whole day and awakening late at night all by myself is okay. But in the morning I don't have anything to be done that brings joy to me and peace. This way I at least be consumed and a little bit happy. If in that also parents or bhai sees me they tease me that you be happy while doing this and together you are not. Therefore it is like I am feeling hurting or sad every time and cannot solve any issue it. Also, I feel very badly many times that how the other person will react especially girls. In boys, I can be stubborn and can curse them. But for girls from the childhood my mother has taught me that you cannot say anything bad or wrong even though they have done anything wrong. I don't know if this is the case or I have seen my whole life even though. But as I grown up I saw that each should be treated equally and should be sorted out but it is what it is. Hopefully I can. One day I want to follow my passion and want to be carefree without any. Thankfully my parents has got a little bit convince now that I am working on something but yes. I want to vlog, want to create funny videos, but I am afraid of the reaction that I usually get from family and friends. As definitely they are going to react in a way that can hurt but still it needs to be figured out. Right now I keep my self busy with watching different videos, vlogs, movies, serial. Therefore everyday waiting when the day will end and I can enjoy the time. Even though I am ready to go through many things during the day then.