Expectation, understanding, family, life partner, empathy, noble cause

 I call the other person and will not get anything. I expect a lot from any person without any reason. I need to stop it from now on. Instead what I will do is I will write here. But the feelings get so strong to ping or call the other person by innovating a reason to talk and discuss further. I don't know this feeling. Yes, I want a partner but I need it to be obsessive but understanding at the same time. Empathy is very ideal for me and it should be the same in the other person. All the people I have been through I see it lacking or it is there but for another specific person. Maybe that is the reason I fall for them and ask for more. I use to hate myself that is why I think so much of other people and not of my parents and bhai who have done many things for me and given me many things. I want to be successful or rather want so much of money that I can tell my dad not to work and enjoy his retired life. The role I have is managing one, ok which I am kind of okay with whereas I want to do something which I like so much. The main thing would be to change people's life by being empathetic but the world can be cruel sometimes, therefore, I also need to be competent in many places while helping or doing something. I know that I have many qualities that are too good and I also know that there are a few areas where I am lacking but it is what it is.

One more thing is I guess a lot automatically leads to thinking about a person, or situation resulting in many wrong assumptions also. For example, I talk with someone and they say something in their mood and I take it onto mine assuming that the other person dislikes me, disowns me, or does not love me back, etc. many things.