Road Bumps

 There are lots of emotions going on. Many times it feels like you are playing the game very nicely but sometimes it is like there is a bigger game going on. Also in the people it feels like you are the only one forwarding every time and there are fewer efforts from others it feels like. Do not do what is right and wrong. Also, I am proceeding forward in a situation where we do not know the outcome what and it will be like. But still, it feels good thus we are flowing through. Also, you can not easily share it with anyone because you will get judged and comments will passed for you in the future that is for sure. Therefore you are not sure if you can share the incident or not. But still, let's see how and what can be done. There are many situations where elders are there and many things are going on but still you feel like it should be something different You have to obey them as per the hierarchy or belief that has been prevailing for a long time or to be specific ancestors time. You can see something in your way but do not know how to progress on it. You are looking for an opportunity or a platform from where you can take off and progress further. You are the small child who is left unheard many times which has created a space in the mind as freedom is not available. Although the family has done so much for you still you feel like you are being unheard of due to you not making decisions or if taking then no one considering them clearly. Thus it also plays an important role and also gets difficult being change the concept. Therefore changing the perspective also needs to be understood and progressed further. You know and your intentions are genuine.

Sometimes the situation is also not in your hands. Therefore you need to be careful about the situations and how to deal with them. Many times you are the only one forwarding yourself and making efforts for the first time every time. Also in the family, the members have been doing the same. Thus you think if it is correct or not. You also think about your self-respect and whether the doing is correct or not. You also want to do something but cannot do it in front of your family because you will get judged and commented for sure in one way or another which will not be good. Thus it cannot be good always which you are afraid of and thinking of how to deal with it. Also if they see what you are doing they may comment saying what and how you are doing. Many times it is difficult sharing with family about the details. The thing is that it is obvious that the reaction comes but it is up to us to understand the situation and then jump to a conclusion rather than directly concluding. It is a great practice to understand the situation and then discuss or confront it to be specific before jumping to the conclusion or finally deciding it is what it is.

The family plays an important role in life but there is something due to which it feels something that what is exactly going on. You need to pretend you are working in front of others so that they also feel not to interrupt or disturb you and you can continue further. Thus it is difficult to go through that feeling. Thankfully life has been created in a way where you are staying in the hostel having freedom or some independent thoughts or actions in the life through which you can proceed on your own. Sometimes there is a thought or thing or person who plays a part in your life going through its thoughts or memory at times due to which you get disturbed and keep on talking or worrying about it. You want to be open in front of others but due to being judged or commented on in different ways, you are afraid to put up your feelings or words.